Gone.

"Boom gone, we moved on."

Hello blog. It's sucha relieved after speaking up to his friend and let him know what has been on my mind and killing me inside all this while. I told him all those things that I've been wanting him to know, all those things that could make him realise. I still love him, but I'm just afraid that he'll hurt me again. We both cried, yes we did. It was indeed an emotional time for both of us. Maybe time just wont let us be together. Things are worst and I know things wont work out anymore between us. Because he isn't making any effort. Fuck my life, seriously what did i do to deserve all this? Ya allah, please have mercy on me :-( I miss him so, and I know there's nothing I couldn't do right now. But I'm relieved that he finally realised all his mistakes. Took advantage of me, made alot of mistakes, left me when I need him the most.. And so, he asked for a second chance. I gave it, but I hope it wont be a mistake. Seriously, I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of everything. Ya allah, what are you trying to let me know..........