26th March 2017.

P.S : This blog post was supposed to be posted on 26th March but it got delayed so I post it today!

It could have been a very good Sunday for everyone, but for some people, I would rather say it's a day where they lost their loved ones. I woke up in the morning and as usual, checked the social media such as Instagram, Twitter, Facebook for nothing(I mean that's what people usually do right? Wake up in the morning and they will go to the Social Medias to check things out.) As I was scrolling my Instagram feeds, my friend posted a picture of his friend who had passed on yesterday. I went on and research about this guy and well, he was part of the WSD team(A dance crew in ITECW.) I may not know who this guy is, but he sure is a good friend to all of his friends. May you rest in peace & be surrounded by all the angels up there. And then I went on to search his girlfriend's profiles everywhere to see if she's doing fine. Obviously, she's not. I mean, she lost the love of her life, and it just had to happened that he left her yesterday without any goodbyes. But what I realise was, she told him "I'll see you tomorrow baby" And his replied was "We won't know if we're able to meet again tomorrow." Scary huh? And he passed on the next day. I hope she's able to pull through although it's not easy, may Allah guide her through. I have some points to talk about in today's post(even though they are not that related). I hope you guys will have a good time reading it!

1. Life & Death

The guy met with an accident which resulted to him, passing on. And there goes people in the Social Media, telling each other to take care while driving or riding... When the actual fact that they did not realise that Life & Death is in His hands. Yes of course, it's better to remind each other to stay safe wherever we all are. But on the other note, you have to also know that even though you think you are safe wherever you are, if He wants to take your soul at that point of time, He surely will. And that's scary. They say people who have passed on will act weirdly 100 days before, 60 days before, and so on. But what if we don't get their actions at all? Sometimes, we would thought that they are just talking bullshit or they are just acting up. But when the time comes, that's where the pieces managed to fill up the puzzles. And then we will regret and wished to rewind back time cos if we knew that it could happened, we could at least try to not let it happen but again, it's all in His hands and He wanted it to be that way. I've lost 6 family members from 2013-2016. My uncle in April 2013, my dad's side granny in May 2013, my dad in October 2013, my dad's side uncle in March 2014, my mum's side granny in July 2015 & my mum's side grandad in July 2016. How did I cope with it? I don't know. I keep telling myself that, things happened for a reason. They are gone for good. He don't want to let them suffer anymore and therefore He took all of them away. Sometimes, when we received news about the people surround us has passed on, I kind of felt that it's actually a time for us to repent and wake up from the dreams we thought could've lasted forever. This is reality. From Him, we came. To Him, we return. We can only pray that he could give all of us enough time to repent before He takes our life away. I've felt the sadness of losing a family member but I can't imagine myself losing the love of my life. It's saddening how you've planned so much with him/her but they left you even before you could do all the plans with them. It breaks me when I got the news even though I don't know the guy and his girlfriend. I was thinking to myself like, yeah, Afiq and I had a lot of plans ahead of us, travelling, getting married, buy a big house, how to raise our kids, how to manage our time, explore adventure stuffs like Skydiving, going to Dubai & Abu Dhabi, etc. I mean, it's not wrong to plan but it's scary to think that What if one day, either of us left and we're unable to do it together? There's a saying, "Kita merancang tetapi hanya Tuhan yang menentukan." May Allah give us more time to repent and turn to Him. 

2. Engagement

Engagement is very scary, I mean, to me. It could be exciting because it means you're one step closer to getting married to the love of your life. But, have you ever thought of the downside? To me, the purpose of getting engaged is to at least shut people's mouth(sorry if it's rude) from saying bad things whenever you and your partner go anywhere. And it's to also let people know that they are going to get married and that no one is supposed to steal them away from their partner. It's very cliche, but a lot of people I've known, broke off their engagement because feelings fade, bla bla bla. When you're engaged, you'll have a lot of challenges, ups & downs to see whether or not you're strong enough to face it with your partner and that's where both of your true colours are out! The most common challenges is when either one of them cheat behind their partner's back. And they will start to think "If you're in a relationship, you can break up. Even when you're engaged, you can break up too & when you're married, you might even get a divorce." But, in the first place, if you ever thought that it could happen that way, it means you're not trusting your partner. It means, you have had trust issues before and you kind of think of the possibilities that could happen and I mean those bad things instead of the good things. I hope, people who had trust issues, are able to deal with it and let their partners have a chance to show them that they aren't like what they think they are and let them show that not all guys/girls are bad. Simply to say, I hope that their partners are able to earn their trust and not lose it easily. Being engaged is fun because you'll be planning and preparing your wedding stuffs and I like to plan so I can foresee myself to get all excited but at the same time, I am very scared. Scared of the challenges that may occur. I mean, any of us can cheat behind our back even though we said we won't. Like I mentioned in my previous point, if He wants it to be that way, he'll make it that way. But when your partner cheats on you, don't be stupid and keep the relationship go on. This is where you start to think of your own happiness and what you will or will not lose. Yes, you will embarrassed your family. But to think of it, it's not your fault, but because your partner's behaved badly, you had to do it. I will assure you, it's not your loss, but her's. May Allah blessed all of us with a lot of strength to face the challenges he's going to give us. 

3. Wedding

Getting married is the most beautiful that can happen in everyone's life. It's where you get married to the love of your life, and spend the rest of your life with them. It's fun, but the responsibilities are different. The guy will be the breadwinner of the family, while the lady supports the guy from the back. This is where we will start to appreciate for hanging onto each other through the bad and the good times. And when we all have kids, we will start to think on how to raise them well, how to manage our time with them, our partners, work and any other commitments any of us have. It's going to be very challenging, but I know it's worth it. I kind of planned out how I want my wedding ceremony to be like so.....

Basically, I want it to be a Princess Theme therefore, the colour is going to be Pink & Purple, which represents Rapunzel! I also want my wedding dresses to be Rapunzel's normal dress & wedding dress to be changed into for the 2nd set! Obviously, I have different group of friends but the important ones will be Secondary School friends & my Higher Nitec friends! Well, can't forget about my Primary School friends & Nitec friends as well but I'm still thinking whether they should have any colour code cos the big group of friends are the first 2 mentioned earlier. So my Secondary School friends will be wearing Purple & Higher Nitec friends will be wearing Pink cos majority of them loves Pink! Food wise, I want to have Chocolate Fondue & Candy Floss! It's impossible la, but I want to make it possible! It's going to be fun! And staycation after the whole ceremony is done!! Like you deserve to rest after a 2-Days event kind of thing. I just can't wait!

I don't know if it's too much but, I hope everything will go smoothly, Insyallah. Afiq's sound asleep and sucks that I can't fall asleep cos I've been getting too much sleep already. Guess I'm just going to waste time till 0600hrs and wake him up for work. I miss him so much already, can't wait to be with him again! Thank you for reading everyone, stay tune for the upcoming posts alright!