A year ago during my birthday, something happened and it was one of the worst downfall ever after arwah's passing. I lost a boy (literally, he's a boy lol) that I thought I love so much. Unfortunately, he left me 2 days before my birthday. I was left alone, crying, in pain, asking The Almighty, why? Why do I get downfall after downfall? And I realised that I wasn't supposed to planned my life because... He has and will always be the best planner ever. As a human being, I failed to realised this, "when The Almighty gave us one of the greatest blessings in our lives, He can take it back any time from us because He can." He would take it back the moment He realised that we took his blessings for granted. I remembered crying so badly, asking "why does this always happen to me?" Yet, I realised again that I may have took things for granted. Few months later, He gave me one of the greatest blessings that I currently have in my life. It was someone that I knew back in the days, never talked before but here we are today, being the greatest blessings in each other's life, sharing great memories, laughing at each other's jokes, disturbing each other jokingly and many more. Being with him made me realised that planning things ahead is not a good thing because it doesn't work that way. It reminded me that The Almighty is indeed the best planner. Up till today, I didn't expect that we'd cross paths. I didn't expect we'd be together till this date. I thought it was a fling, just a 1 time meet up thing. But here we are today, being a pain in each other's asses but I'm very thankful.
Within a year of our relationship, I learnt a lot. We went through a lot of ups and downs together and the #1 highlight of our relationship was the moment when he just ORD from NS & I was out of job so the routine of our life was working together, from 10-8/9pm, getting ourselves settled down after reaching home, playing games till midnight and the cycle continues for a good 2 months. I remembered how we didn't even go out for a date and just work our asses off from Mon-Sun without resting. We'd split the pay when we got them and treat each other to good foods in between our working hours. Man, I would go back to that day if I get to choose which part of my life that I could re-live. That moment of my life was 1 of the best part ever because we didn't bring up about whose effort was more or whose money was used up the most when it comes to food or topping up petrol and other things that I may have forgotten but the point here is, we both knew that we did it sincerely and never want to bring it up because it would have cause a mess in the relationship and it's not healthy. That moment of my life was also the part where I knew that we can depend on each other. In a good way, of course. Like when either of us are at our downfall, we'd be there, motivating each other & giving moral supports to keep each other going.
I also learnt a lot from his life and all the values he has taught me. Honestly, I wish daddy was still around and could've met him because he is such a lovely person and I also know that daddy would've loved him. But again, I know that daddy is looking upon us from the above and he knows that I'm in good hands & that he doesn't have to worry. It's easy. If he ever hurt me, daddy will turn up in his dream and scold him (HAHAHAHA IM KIDDING, IM JUST SAYING IT COS HE'S PROBABLY READING THIS AND SMILING cos that's how we joke around each other). I am very thankful that he brought me to his family and hang out with them most of the time (when we were not as busy as we are now). It makes me feel like there's a sense of belonging and honestly, I am thankful of him because he made my relationship with my family better in a sense that whenever I'm with his family, it reminds me that family is everything and especially my mum. My relationship with her has been amazing and I am thankful to him and it's all also thanks to The Almighty. Without me knowing, this guy is really a blessing in disguise. The Almighty let us cross paths for us to learn a lot from each other. So thank you, ah boy (his nickname) and most of all, thank you to The Almighty. I am very grateful and indeed, I am happy. Of course, there are times where we'd fight like 2 mad people but we'd always look past through it because we both know that it's unhealthy to keep on fighting. Really thankful for him.
Thank you for everything, ah boy. You are amazing, you're sweet & such a lovely boy. I am the happiest whenever I'm with you, I am blessed to have you in my life. Here's to many more years of disturbing each other, birthdays together and many more years of achieving our milestones together!
p.s we like to keep it as a mystery because it's much more fun that way!
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